xacuchina

Well hello everyone!


Been a hell of a long ass time.... first let me say I am surprised that one of my recent deviations back from 2018 is getting fav’d like wild fire... which me makes me happy, but as you all can see I haven’t come back to the fold like I said I would in past journal entries, well the reason is I’ve been working in the hotel industry these past 4 years and my job takes a lot of my time away from me, mostly on my days off I’m just sleeping on trying to catch up on my tv shows or movies, hell even trying to game is difficult!

So that meant my art had to suffer as a result... but what is bringing me back is that because of the fav’s I have been getting it has inspired me to come back get OEUVRE off the ground and make it into something worthwhile... I’ve decided that everything I have will be dedicated to this project as I have been building the world and story layout for a few years now and I plan on posting sketches of characters done on my iPad mini’s and on my iPhone X (which I am currently using to write up this journal)

As for why I am so gun hoe about this, in a past journal entry I stated my passion of my art was dying... and I feared that with that I would soon lose my passion for my projects... a lot of you won’t understand this but I am not confident in my coloring or hell even my sketching skills anymore and for the time I was away from my work the decay if you would allow me to oddly describe it started to show... I couldn’t trust myself to produce anything worthy like I used to back in my hay day (if you will) and my lack of confidence in my skills and myself started to make me hate a lot of my stuff, that I never wanted to touch it again...

I lost 2 projects that loved and put my heart and soul into developing the worlds for because my lack of confidence took hold and drove me into abandoning them because I believed my art just simply was never going to be on the level of those that I followed and be friended on here at DA.

But after taking the long hiatus that I have been on I say this, I finally woke up and realized that my work has value to it, I need to stop trying to match those I admire , just do my own thing... my work is my work, I have to be confident that what i produce is my best work yet.

So my goal is to post something every week it might just be a quick sketch or an updated image... but this time when I say I am coming back, this time I mean it.

And on a final thought to all of those who fav’d OUEVRE Steven P. Lockhert design I thank you truly from the bottom of my heart... because of your fav’s you all have inspired me to create again!

So thank you.

-Static212

So yeah I'm back at least I think I am? Anyways I posted a new redesign of a character for a old series I tried to create when I first joined DA so many many many years back. Sadly I was Ill experienced and it killed my project, I had too many ideas for the series that it became more of pain in the ass, than a pleasure, so I push it aside for a few years while I focused on other failing ideas, but eventually I came back to it, due to some crazy ass design that I actually thought could work..... Ha ha yeah right! Anyways I tried to work with my crazy ass design idea that it would always end up making the project even more complicated, look let me get straight to the point, I'm 28 years old now and my talents have got me no where, I can't even finish a simple comic idea, let alone start it, so why do I keep trying, I think what it is, is that I don't want to see my ideas die, due to my lack of passion for my own craft. Because of the constant amount of ridiculous hours I work as a delivery driver for a family owned pharmacy.

it's been two years since I last logged on here... and I have to say that no matter how many times I try to reconnect with my artistic side within myself, I never seem to be able to get anything done.... i'm had so many problems get in the way or that would disable me from focusing on my talents and thus causing me to not submit anything in such a long time, to be very honest here this saddens me great amount because I failed a lot of people who are friends with me on here and always enjoyed coming on my page and checking out my work....

but just a few hours ago i logged in and noticed that I been getting fav's for one piece I'm not really proud of this piece because of the fake alterations that resulted afterwards when I submitted it on here on October 4, 2004 I had no idea the popularity this piece would receive, the original version was on here a few days or weeks (i don't really know or remember for that matter.) before I submitted the October 4th version but the original was removed for reasons that I could never talk about, but today I'm finally ready to tell you all about it, the original piece is sadly no longer within my possession but before joining DA I had my own website I posted a lot of my work on... about 3 weeks of uploading artwork I noticed several people logging into my website and checking out my art, now at first I was excited about it but after a few days I noticed my art work was showing up edited on google pages and whatever internet search engine service available back in 2004. one thing I noticed was that the edits that were done to my pieces were the "lame ass" C.PAS tag was erased from them. I then went to search why this was happening, I stumbled upon a lot of my work being posted on several online open forums i'm not going to give the names of the sites but I did do some wrong doings here, I went to investigate as to who was taking my work while modifying it and posting it as their own... I got pretty upset about it and devised a terrible plan... I decided to sign up on the open forum and search the several sites for my stolen work... now what I did next I'm really not going to go into detail of what I did but because of my actions I decided to take down one piece in particular for good... the revision of the modified original is staying because there is a lot that was changed to secure the proper ownership of the piece overall. I do realize that by removing this particular work I have lost my chances of getting a DD on here but honestly I check my messages and notice that not many visitors on here look at all my art but they keep focusing on this one particular piece... which is great and all but to me that's not what makes me a good artist to me my style or concepts are better than just some photograph so this piece is gone for good and will never return I feel bad because my piece was featured on some users articles but if they read this journal entry I hope they will understand.

You see I can't just feed off the fame of one image I need more images to become successful, so what does this all mean... is the announcement of my return, the return of my styles or the improvement of my skills, the constant (yeah right! lol) updates about ETERNAL DREAMS or SPUD or some other ridiculous announce or art project that probably will never happen? Does this mean I finally will be able to create again, visit several other talented DA artists and comment on their work and practically favorite every last image or sketch this artist has done and top it off become a deviantart watcher? my journal updates be about some stupid bitch fest or some ridiculous tragedy that occurred to me? What does this all mean

Well yes I am coming back, my skills have improved greatly I think and soon you all will be able to see, updates about my personal projects might happen though I'm taking caution with ETERNAL DREAMS it's one project that I spent 12 years or more with and I would be extremely devastated if I lost it in any way... I never stopped creating I simply tried to focus on things that I thought were once important and hurt myself in process of doing so, I hurt my own beliefs that I was a good artist and when I went to school I lost sight of my own personal goals and of my skills, I truly believed that I had no skills and that my style wasn't anything special, and I had a hard time accepting that when in fact it was not true. I worked my artistic mentality and my creative control for awhile now and to battle with these false beliefs that I was told to be true was not a easy thing to do.

So I am returning, I am ready to show you all how much I have changed since joining DA in 2004, and this time I will not stop myself or allow anyone to stop me from becoming what I should've been a long time ago, and that is a true artist.

hey everyone just a little update for you all... I have stopped working on my secret project to re focus on ETERNAL DREAMS and The Combat Medic cartoons. The Script for E.D. is getting reworked from the ground up because the first book and the rest of the books will be seperated into 3 stories each book will focus on the Rewind (the past), Play (the present) and Pause (the source of both the past and present)  of a character in E.D. each book will connect a character's Play story to a previous book. books are going to be released as........

ETERNAL DREAMS 01: XAC (pronounced as Zack)
ETERNAL DREAMS 02: KENSHI
ETERNAL DREAMS 03: RICO
ETERNAL DREAMS 04: PAYNE
ETERNAL DREAMS 05: SENTO
ETERNAL DREAMS 06: RONIN
ETERNAL DREAMS 07: RA-JIN/RA-TOA
ETERNAL DREAMS 08: KENSUE
ETERNAL DREAMS 09: SHI (pronounced as Shea)

*Please Note the name of the characters will not be on the titles.*

I'm really getting hyper excitied for this as this project as been with me since I first joined DA 5 years ago (holy crap it's been 5 years!?) be prepared to see a old style reworked... in a ways.

also keep an eye out for some ED style fan art of some of my DA buddies Characters on here... well that's about it. Make sure you look for my book cover concepts for ED as well.

on another note I have condensed the character roster for SPUD and will begin posting model sheets or character designs.... the story has gotten alot darker as well and the script is about 85% complete the story will focus on the Power struggle between SPUD and WIRE and humans who help bring SPUD back to life...

keep your eyes peeled because I'm going to be building this gallery up each month...

catch you all later.

hey everyone so your all wondering why my gallery is well um empty, your all asking Where's the art where's POWER, where's ETERNAL DREAMS? where's the other stuff you had in there? well things have been hectic as hell in my life and those projects are too much at risk at being forgotten and since I hold them near and dear to my heart I cannot afford to pursue them any further mostly because I don't have the time nor the energy to focus on them at this moment, my school life is in shambles as I can't pass any of my 3d animation courses... so I am at battle with myself as I to try and find some kind of ground to get over this giant ass obstacle... but more I try I keep coming to one solution stop focusing on animation and switch my major... anyways since POWER and E.D. are going to be put on hold for some time...
I figured I would let you all know I have a secret project in the works a Graphic Novel I have been dying to start... sadly though no one here on DA will know the name or the characters in this project gotta make sure my idea is well hidden for the time being... and on another note POWER is being renamed once more (I know I know, make up my mind already god dammit!) that series is going to be called S.P.U.D. once more (yes I'm serious) as for that I have decided to make it into a online web (semi animated) comic. (Trust me the idea will work) I should have newer concept art for Supreme Power of Ultimate Destruction in the next few months as for the story well that's being reworked as well too many characters to focus on since SPUD is only going to be a short series I came to the conclusion that not alot of the little characters are needed to be remade.
As for E.D. I've been hard at work fleshing out the script for my Graphic Novel series (yes that's right I said Graphic Novel series... as in more than one book try seven to be exact...) I had to remove the earlier concept art for that due to the fact I wasn't happy with it... So that will go a major change in the next few months or more. The script is coming along great there's alot of backstory and action alongside some pretty deep drama in it as well. I hoping to have the first book completed before I graduate (that's if I graduate.)
As for the secret project, well like i said it's going to be a graphic novel the story is a what if story about super hero and their dark sides if you will... and yes I will be posting some concepts shortly in the next few days and just to let you all know 2 old characters are merging into this story, my lame named villain called (ugh shoot me) The Dentist (yeah I know wtf is wrong with me) and my vampire anti-hero hell bent on revenge Cassavantes they are getting much deserved redesigns because their stories in this graphic novel work so well. I'm hoping my idea is as big as Watchmen was (yes I'm excited about the upcomming movie) but I'll just have to wait and see where this will go.
well that's about it hope that everyone is having a enjoyable holiday and a safe one as well. Well keep an eye out for my new stuff.